lightstock_155376_download_medium_user_4468798“Hope, to be hope, has to fix what is broken.”

This wasn’t even Paul Tripp’s tagline from my January 20th devotional – but it’s what stuck with me. All over social media, the news, and the conversations of those around me was a mixture of hope & despair, joy & sadness, confidence & fear – all as a new leader and staff were inaugurated 1200 miles away from my Oklahoma home. And the Holy Spirit pulled this line out for me: “hope, to be hope, has to fix what is broken.”

I had to ask myself, “What am I hoping in? What have I placed my hope in that has no power to fix what’s broken?” I won’t detail the laundry list (everything from my job to health to my husband) but it was sobering to read my own words. My list of empty vessels could not deliver what I was looking for – hope.

God, in His sovereignty, supremacy, and grace allowed me to see that I can only find true hope – hope that can fix what is broken – in Him. He’s allowing me to walk this out daily (sometimes joyfully, sometimes not so much) and see Him break each vessel that I have wrongfully put hope in. Praise the Lord for His grace!

What about you? What are you placing your hope in that has no power to fix what’s broken? Surrender these empty vessels to the Lord and allow Him to point you back to Himself for true, lasting, enduring hope.



PDT and Coffee

IMG_3878Most mornings you can find me at my dining room table in the chair on the left side of the table facing the window with a cup of coffee, my black journal, Bible my parents got me in college, and New Morning Mercies by Paul David Tripp (affectionately dubbed PDT by some Bible study friends of mine). This is my safe place. My “Sadie and Jesus” time. Often, this is where/when I spend my quality time with my good, good Father.

Several times over the past few weeks I’ve felt that I could spend every post on this blog about PDT and what God is teaching me through my time in this devotional. I’ve mentioned this to my sweet mentor to which she has replied, “Then share it!” In the vein of feeling insecure about having a ‘voice,’ I’ve brushed off her charge. Except this morning.

Since the beginning of May, I’ve struggled with anxiety/worry/fear in a way I haven’t in quite some time. Couple hard conversations with students, tragedies in families I work with, mission trip season for my ministry, and general fallenness with inconsistent weather and allergies that make me dizzy and you have my past few weeks. CB (aforementioned sweet mentor) has consistently encouraged me to praise God for these trials, not just in them. And this morning’s devotional brings me to this: we can praise God for these trials because He is near. He sees us. He sustains us. And so much more. Bear with me and read an excerpt from the May 20th devo which references the story of Joshua and Jericho:

God was teaching Israel that they must no longer look at life from the vantage point of human wisdom and strength because they were now the children of the Lord almighty. Their world of weakness and limits had been invaded by One of awesome grace and glory. As they walked around Jericho, God was confronting Israel with their inability, vulnerability, and dependency, and comforting them with the reality that he would be with them wherever they went and whatever they faced. They would face no enemies on their own. They would carry no needs by themselves. They would not have to bear the burden or carry their destiny in their own hands. Grace and glory had come to them in the presence of the Lord, and in the power of the Lord the walls would come down.
If you’re God’s child, you too must remember who you are and what you’ve been given. It is never you against the world, because your life has been invaded by the grace and glory of Immanuel. Say no to fear and live with the hope and courage that come only when you remember that the Lord is near.

May 20th | New Morning Mercies, Paul David Tripp

So, all this to say: whatever Jericho God has you walking around today, this week, this month, this year—say no to fear. And not because you can work out what’s going on in your own strength but because we have the promise of God in Scripture. “…for He, God Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. I will not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake you, nor relax My hold on you! Assuredly not!” (Hebrews 13:5 AMP)  As CB reminded me yesterday at lunch, fear/embarrassment/shame are tools the enemy has used since the Garden. Call out the lies of Satan and replace it with the truth of God. We can’t do this on our own or in our own strength. Praise the Lord for His constant presence. He is near.

Learning alongside you,

I don’t know what to title my first post.


So there it is. The first post. I started this blog two months ago in obedience to how God was calling me to share the journey he has and is taking me on. I think upon creating the blog, I turned to God and said, “Well, I made the blog. Are we done now?” And apparently, we’re not. So here we go again.

‘The first post.’ What pressure! For me to say something profound. To write down something that resonates with the heart of any reader who dare read this page. To be eloquent. And this, my one follower (who is actually myself. do I dare dig into that one?), is exactly what keeps me from moving forward: fear. In my quiet time this morning, I came across a post from one of my favorite Instagrammers about Psalm 142:7. How often do I let my heart be imprisoned by lies from the enemy and this world that I have no business holding on to? Christ died that I wouldn’t be in bondage to fear, insecurity, worry, etc. As my mentor, Christy, says: “You might want to sit with God about that one for a while, Sadie.”

And here we are. Imperfect. Unfinished. Transparent. Isn’t that the sweetness of life and what God does in it, though? He takes imperfect, unfinished, and raw children and displays His glory and His majesty in them.  And that’s what I’ll strive to be here: real, transparent, and always working to make God’s name bigger and more wonderful than my own. The first post is one of the hardest. I don’t know what this’ll look like but I want to cover it in prayer and walk forward. Seeking God and what He wants for this. Loaves and fish and a God who can take the simplest of offerings and use it for His glory and His kingdom.